Tuesday, March 18, 2014

The Road to Happiness 1

I've had moments in my life, as many have also experienced, where I think to myself that I could increase in spirituality. I've never considered myself not active in my spiritual life, but it know that there is much I can improve on.

This hasn't been such a demand on me to force me to really exact myself to development until most recently. It was yesterday March 17, 2014 in fact that this compelling force really hit me in full. Am I bad man? No, but I'm not the best man I can be. This is what I realized I've been missing.

It was while I read Mosiah chapter 23 that I discovered the road to happiness which I needed to embark on. There have been so many blessings I have longed for, and long plead for from The Lord, but why haven't I seen any of them? Well, simply put, how can I ask for something from God without showing why I deserve it? I can't expect eternal blessings through temporal works.

To describe briefly what it is that I have been searching for, I don't need to say much, I think. I'm sure many of my peers desire the same. There is nothing more desirable to me than imagining myself holding a child who looks me in the eyes and while hugging me says, "I love you daddy." Along with that I imagine looking at a beautiful woman and thinking to myself, "You lucky guy, look at her. She's simply amazing and by far the best wife and mother there is." These are the main desires I have, and at the same time there is much more that I want along this path of happiness.

Like I stated before, though, I can't expect to receive the eternal through temporal works. I'm not looking for a wife "til death do we part." I want a family for time and all eternity. Having really discovered how profound this blessing is, I came to know how profound my love and faith needed to be.

I want to detail my road of happiness in this blog as some sort of journal to keep and share with others. I feel it will be an opportunity for me to see the blessings as they come.

Today, I started on this path stumbling forward with only hope leading me on. I know that I'm most susceptible to temptation and idolatry when I'm feeling down and the blessing I saw today was small and simple, but amazing. I remembered. I remembered that I'm weak when I'm down. Knowing this, and remembering the lesson I learned when reading Mosiah 23, I held fast to hope and look forward to the blessings to come.

Today I felt slightly that I was treated unfairly in the workplace and that despite my best efforts, I was nobody. Im not going into much detail because it's not necessary to know the details. All that is important to know is I was not happy and as I began to feel desires to give up on myself and let me fall into anger and sadness, it was then that I remembered how Alma and his followers had times of the same down feelings for much time even. Yet they hoped and moved forward.

I'm happy to know that The Lord has not forgotten me and I see this in such a small but strong blessing of remembrance.

I will continue to log experiences as I go forward on this road. Maybe not daily, but with consistancy.

1 comment:

  1. That's pretty amazing. Keep on that road and you can find so much that will shape and bless you in the years to come. Elder Bednar speaks on "Tender Mercies" same with Nephi in 1 Nephi 1:20. Thanks for the reminder on what we need to to to find and see those blessings.

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